Posted in Motivation, Quitting Smoking, Uncategorized by Missy

We left off with me talking about the dangers of weighing yourself each and every day. 🙂 I am happy to report that I am now down 14.5 lbs since I started this journey two weeks ago. I am 193 lbs. I still have a long ways to go, but it is definitely a good start.

The cravings really were not that bad…up until two days ago. That’s when pizza cravings started. I think what triggered the cravings was the appetizers I had at a Candle Party on Friday night. I had two glasses of organic wine, then was faced with platters of ham and cheese pinwheels, tostitos and cheese salsa dip, and a pumpernickel bread bowl with a spinach dip. I had about 5 pinwheels, one tostitos, and about 5 pieces of the bread with spinach dip. That was me actually using self control. Had I eaten as I have in the past, those platters would have been gone.

Last night I had another craving for wine and also for pizza. We are tight on money, so my husband did get me a $3 bottle of wine. Well actually I am not sure how much wine really is in it, The bottle said “An Apple Wine Product”. As I was drinking the wine product, I told my husband my pizza cravings had NOT gone away and that I really wanted a cheap pizza from Dominoes. He tried to talk me out of it, listing reasons why we shouldn’t order the pizza, but in the end the pizza was ordered. Mushrooms and Green Peppers on top.

Classic Cheap Wine

It seemed like the pizza took forever to get here. My salivary glands were working overtime. When the pizza finally got here, I sat, took a deep breath, and grabbed a few slices. As if to add to the sin I was about to commit, I added some Parmesan cheese on top. The first bite was heavenly. As I was working on my third slice, I thought back to my brothers autopsy report. I started wondering exactly how much plaque these slices of pizza were going to put on my arteries. I thought about how many days this pizza I had was going to take off my life. I really started feeling bad, like I was failing my brother, and myself. I felt guilty. I knowingly got a pizza that was unhealthy for me and not part of my diet.

My hands remind me of the sins I committed last night. I am allergic to alcohol and tomatoes. What it does is cause a condition I have called “Ezcema”. Basically I woke up with an itchy rash on my hands, due to my choices last night. That is Karma working her magic.

My hands show the sins that I committed last night.

Phase One of South Beach Diet is to stop eating bad carbs(breads, pastas, rice) and sugar(Including fruits). After almost two weeks I think the pizza and wine craving was due to the lack of those two things. From what the diet says is that by cutting those things out the first two weeks, it also helps get rid of the cravings…Apparently my body is built assbackwards, because it caused me to crave those things. That or me giving in to the appetizers and wine(which I did not crave at the time), caused me to crave them.

Again…this blog is about my triumphs and my failures. I am human. Perhaps it is justification, but when I think how well I ate for two weeks, compared to how I was normally eating, I think I have come along way. Even if I did succumb to a few bad foods.

The good news is this. I start Phase Two of the South Beach Diet this week. That means I can slowly add grains and fruit back into my diet. One fruit and one grain a day to start. I can also have a glass of wine a day. So now when I have a craving for pizza and wine, I can make my own pizza dough made out of whole wheat flour and low fat cheese, and pour myself a glass of wine.

Small steps. 🙂

How do you eat an elephant? One bite at a time.

Phase Two, day 14 of South Beach Diet and 12 Days, 22 hours, and 54 minutes since my last cigarette.

22Jan2014

A Scale Named Karma…

Posted in Motivation, Uncategorized by Missy

A lot of exercise programs and diets, discourage people from weighing themselves daily and instead encourage weighing yourself weekly. I think perhaps I should follow that advice. I weighed myself after I woke up this afternoon(I worked 11pm-7am last night) and was mortified. I gained a pound. Not only that, but I waited a few hours and tried again, praying the scale was just teasing me this morning. Karma sure can be a bitch!(Karma is my new name for my scale.) That bitch had the balls to laugh at me, stick her tongue out, and announce that I put on not one pound as earlier, but now 2 lbs!

I moved Karma to another spot on the floor. Tapped it, looked for the zero, then stepped on it. Not only is Karma a bitch, but she sure is a stubborn one at that! I must have moved the scale to a few different locations and tried stepping on it over and over and she was just adamant that I put on 2 lbs.

*sigh*

I do not recall doing anything destructive to my diet. There is no way that 1/2 cup of egg noodles could do this! So I started thinking of what could have caused it, and I am thinking it’s the coffee from the gas station. Usually I make my own at home, but the past couple days, my husband has been picking me up coffee from there and they do not have fat free half and half. There is whole milk and there is light cream. I am not thinking light as in calories…So when my husband said he was going to get us coffee this afternoon, I told him just to get himself one. I would sacrifice and make my own with 1% milk.

I don’t expect to lose 9 lbs this week, I am a realist after all. But I am starting to think my scale has it out for me. Perhaps from putting all my weight on it so many times, trying to prove her wrong.

Weigh yourself every few days or once a week..But do not do it daily!

Lesson Learned.

21Jan2014

South Beach Peanut Butter Cookies Recipe (Phase 1)

Posted in Recipes by Missy

I *sooooo* will be making these babies as soon as I buy a bag of Splenda!

South Beach Peanut Butter Cookies. Compliments of food.com

Ingredients:Serves: 12Yield:12 cookies

1 cup peanut butter
1 cup Splenda granular (sugar substitute)
1 egg

Directions:

1)Preheat oven to 350 degres. Mix the three ingredients thoroughly. Drop by spoonfuls on a cookie sheet. Dip a fork in Splenda and press gently on top of cookie.

2 )Bake for 10 minutes. Remove from pan carefully after cooling slightly. Enjoy!Link to recipe: http://www.food.com/recipe/south-beach-peanut-butter-cookies-185297

21Jan2014

Exercise

Posted in Exercise by Missy

Time: 30 minutes

Tension: 2

Miles: 11

Calories burned: Over 400..

I still cannot reset the exercise bikes settings. The miles said 61 when I started and I did it till it hit 72 miles, which was 30 minutes later. No picture today, because it came out too dark. (garage was cleaned and rearranged.)

I wanted to make excuses not to exercise today, but instead “got it over with”. Like eating steak, brussel sprouts, and a loaded baked potatoe, where you eat the food you dislike most, first.

I will do this. I am doing this. Why?

Cause I need to…

21Jan2014

3rd Shift Imbalance..

Posted in Motivation, Uncategorized by Missy

I work Per Diem as a nurse in a nursing home..What that means is I work whatever shifts are available. I have no set schedule. Tonight I am working 11pm to 7am. What that means is not only is my sleep schedule off, but my eating schedule too. To prepare me for my shift, I had to stay up most of the night and sleep most of today. It’s 2:30. I woke up about an hour ago. I have not eaten as of yet, because if I woke up early and ate and went to work tonight, I would not only be tired, but also would have gotten all my meals in. This is going to throw me off for today and tomorrow, however I will not be making bad meal decisions. The key to it? Planning.

Failing to plan is planning to fail.

What I need to do today is come up with a do-able meal plan for today and tonight. I am already planning on bringing a salad to work and some veggies and hummus for a snack. I will probably stop at the store on the way to work and pick up a few bottles of water for my shift. Usually I drink diet soda at work, but I gave that up. Also I tend to drink coffee only once a day on my diet, because caffeine tends to set you back on the weight loss, according to all the studies I have read up on. So either I will be stopping for coffee or will just suck it up and drink water all night. I am still undecided about that.

In a little while, I will go hop on the recumbent bike for 30 minutes, so I can get the exercise over with. Generally my idea of exercise on a work day, is running around giving my patients meds. I will not use that excuse today. I did not exercise yesterday at all, which means I have only exercised once this week. I also had a small serving of egg noodles last night with dinner, which is a no no on phase one of South Beach Diet. As I have said many times, accountability is WHY I made this blog…and of course progress. I will not set myself up for failure. The small fails I have will not over shadow the progress I WILL make.

I am on the second week of Phase One of my diet. I will not have 9 lb results, I do know that. My goal is 5 lbs this week and in order to achieve that, I must work for it. I must earn the body that I want.