We left off with me talking about the dangers of weighing yourself each and every day. 🙂 I am happy to report that I am now down 14.5 lbs since I started this journey two weeks ago. I am 193 lbs. I still have a long ways to go, but it is definitely a good start.
The cravings really were not that bad…up until two days ago. That’s when pizza cravings started. I think what triggered the cravings was the appetizers I had at a Candle Party on Friday night. I had two glasses of organic wine, then was faced with platters of ham and cheese pinwheels, tostitos and cheese salsa dip, and a pumpernickel bread bowl with a spinach dip. I had about 5 pinwheels, one tostitos, and about 5 pieces of the bread with spinach dip. That was me actually using self control. Had I eaten as I have in the past, those platters would have been gone.
Last night I had another craving for wine and also for pizza. We are tight on money, so my husband did get me a $3 bottle of wine. Well actually I am not sure how much wine really is in it, The bottle said “An Apple Wine Product”. As I was drinking the wine product, I told my husband my pizza cravings had NOT gone away and that I really wanted a cheap pizza from Dominoes. He tried to talk me out of it, listing reasons why we shouldn’t order the pizza, but in the end the pizza was ordered. Mushrooms and Green Peppers on top.
Classic Cheap Wine
It seemed like the pizza took forever to get here. My salivary glands were working overtime. When the pizza finally got here, I sat, took a deep breath, and grabbed a few slices. As if to add to the sin I was about to commit, I added some Parmesan cheese on top. The first bite was heavenly. As I was working on my third slice, I thought back to my brothers autopsy report. I started wondering exactly how much plaque these slices of pizza were going to put on my arteries. I thought about how many days this pizza I had was going to take off my life. I really started feeling bad, like I was failing my brother, and myself. I felt guilty. I knowingly got a pizza that was unhealthy for me and not part of my diet.
My hands remind me of the sins I committed last night. I am allergic to alcohol and tomatoes. What it does is cause a condition I have called “Ezcema”. Basically I woke up with an itchy rash on my hands, due to my choices last night. That is Karma working her magic.
My hands show the sins that I committed last night.
Phase One of South Beach Diet is to stop eating bad carbs(breads, pastas, rice) and sugar(Including fruits). After almost two weeks I think the pizza and wine craving was due to the lack of those two things. From what the diet says is that by cutting those things out the first two weeks, it also helps get rid of the cravings…Apparently my body is built assbackwards, because it caused me to crave those things. That or me giving in to the appetizers and wine(which I did not crave at the time), caused me to crave them.
Again…this blog is about my triumphs and my failures. I am human. Perhaps it is justification, but when I think how well I ate for two weeks, compared to how I was normally eating, I think I have come along way. Even if I did succumb to a few bad foods.
The good news is this. I start Phase Two of the South Beach Diet this week. That means I can slowly add grains and fruit back into my diet. One fruit and one grain a day to start. I can also have a glass of wine a day. So now when I have a craving for pizza and wine, I can make my own pizza dough made out of whole wheat flour and low fat cheese, and pour myself a glass of wine.
Small steps. 🙂
How do you eat an elephant? One bite at a time.
Phase Two, day 14 of South Beach Diet and 12 Days, 22 hours, and 54 minutes since my last cigarette.